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Why do we leave the little stuff for last? Well at least when I still had a lot of time left I thought it was the little stuff. My pile of little things to do is growing bigger, or so it seems. Maybe with so little time left I just feel it growing. I have been working hard the last couple of days but I still feel like I am getting nothing done. Or maybe I am just being to hard on myself. Who knows. I just know I am stressed about it. I hate getting ready for a move, but I like moving. I have no idea why I like to move. I wish that we could go back to the Netherlands.

Ok so I forgot to tell about my updates with my appointment for my thyriod. I guess I don't have to have my meds change. What I'm on works, and works well. When I first started my medication I was loseing about 2 lbs a week. Now it's about 2 lbs a day. I do like having the extra energy, but I still feel drained. I guess any one would with a weight loss of 2lbs a day for over a week. I keep this up and I will be under 200 lbs in less then a month for sure. Doctor said it could happen, I just didn't think it would happen this fast! No truth be told I didn't think it would happen, just the way my luck usually runs. I didn't think I would ever see 200 again. I worked so hard to lose weight and it seemed the harder I worked the less I would see. I went to curves for a year and nothing I lost a lot of inches in the first few months, but after a while it stopped. After going for 3 more months and seeing no difference a few of the ladys who worked there asked me if I had a medical problem. I didn't think I did but I went to the Doctor got poked and prodded and gave some blood up. Well I went back to the Doctor, she said I was fine other then my heavy weight. She had lied to me strait faced and every thing, what she failed to tell me then was my thyroid was out of whack, way out of whack. I continued to go to curves to finish out my year. It was great, but I felt I was being cheated going to work out and paying for it and not losing a damn thing. So now more then a year later and the loss of my baby, my OB doctor told me that there is something wrong with my thyroid and told me the last test was bad too. I felt like I had hit a brick wall. At least I now know what is wrong with me and it's being taken care of.

Well back to working on the house. Must get it done and soon.

Can we say stress!

So the movers come in 10 days. I feel like I am going in circles. There is no begging and no end to it. I can't wait till the next 2 weeks are over. I still have a lot of shit to do and with me just doing it I have no idea if I will be done in time. I am trying to do things that 2-4 people would do, with no help. I think when I get to the next duty station I'm not helping a damn person. No one here bothers to help me, and they love to use me. Why? I know I'm nice and all but I do have feelings and I don't like being used. I have appointments up the butt. Can I please be split in to 3 people? I have gone threw about 80% of the house I still have a big walk-in closet and part of the spare room. I am 50% of the way done with the out side crap, but I still have to rake the yard and go threw the out side storage room. I'm not looking forward to that all the spiders, mostly black widows. I'm thinking about bombing it again. I don't really want to get bit just before moving. I only have a week to get this all done. I can feel the time screaming by too. I guess that it does not help that they would not push back the date that he was suppose to arrive to the new duty station. Making it just a little harder on us. If I did not get Eric's clearing papers, Eric would not have been able to take any leave. Heck he would not have even gotten to have Permissive TDY. So at least now we can spend 10 days in Michigan. Well around that any ways. I hope that I have gotten rid of enough stuff. I don't really want to be over weight. I would hate to have to pay back what we are getting for advanced DITY move pay. At least we are only getting 80% of it up front. But it looked more like 50%. So much work to do. I guess that I better get a few more things done before I go to bed. I wonder how late I will be up tonight.